Life goes so fast... why is it that when your a child, it goes slow and all you want to do is grow up only to open your eye's one day and find that your a year away from 40, your youngest child has just started school and your oldest is turning 21!

I certainly don't feel like an almost 40yr old mother of 4. I still think I can do things that I did 15 years ago. I look at my wonderful kids and think... when did all this happen? Why does it go so fast? And why can't I slow life down, just a little so I can enjoy just being alive?


My little girl has her first full week at school this week. I wonder how she will go... She kept asking on the weekend 'is it a school day?' and then was disappointed when I said no. hehehe

So, now what do I do with this new phase of my life? In short my 3 younger kids are all now at school and my eldest is no longer living with me. My house is quiet and I actually get to watch the TV if I want too.. I have a wonderful boyfriend who has 2 kids of his own at school. And things are going well.

I just don't know what to do with myself. I can't remember what inspires me or what I really like to do anymore. My focus has always been on my kids. It's only the second week of school back, so I guess I have time to find my feet again.

I am still a mum before and after school with after school activities and weekends.. so its just the times inbetween that I need to find something to focus my energy on....